`` hadoukennn

well , feeling very pissed or maybe jealous now because i just read something , how words can really hurt someone huh , i kept thinking why do i always still care , and kept asking myself "who the hell is him."
this week is bad , had no idea what to do next time i saw her , even i approach her , it won't help . its like ... she don't want to talk to me in real anymore eh . really fuck up now .why? BECAUSE IT REALLY MAKE ME FEEL LIKE THAT 2 YEARS WAS JUST CRAP , TOTALLY CRAP , made me really jealous because i wasn't the one who she sms already , misses that sms so so much . fk , i am really pathetic , i can't help it ...
i had so much more reasons which shouldn't be said here , even i said all these , she just doesn't care , she have other suitor to care about .
like everytime i get in her blog , my heart will crush , fuck this ,

ok .. well , adam khoo talk was nice , but it doesn't affect me in anyway , all the things he said , i already applied it in my life , my life just don't go that way . i learned to plan since i was in pri 4,
the things i plan, ALWAYS come out wrong , every year new year when our cousin gather up and gamble , i will say to myself i will lose 40 dollar this year , instead i win , every single little things don't go on my flow . i don't hate god for this , it may be what i do .
overall the whole seminar don't help at all , but i still gave strongly agree to alot of things in the survey . boring week i can say , and i am starting to hate holiday .

going IT fair later i think . depends , gonna get a headphone , really craving for it now .

-kaiyong.
"yes , i am not you , i won't know what u feel . but what u show physicallly really make me think a different side of you ."
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